‘Abused By Patients For Turning Up Late On Jobs, Never Supported By Line Managers, Manipulated Response Times’ | Anon
As many of our readers and followers will know (both inside and outside of the emergency services / NHS), we are passionate about highlighting the need for better mental healthcare provisions for emergency services & NHS personnel.
As more and more people become willing to talk about and share their own experiences with mental health, it is our hope that anyone who feels like the emotional burden of the job is becoming too much will reach out.
At the bottom of this article, we have added some contact details for Minds’ #OurBlueLight project.
We also hope that by sharing these anonymous stories, then better provisions will be made for emergency services / NHS personnel who time-and-time again are being exposed to high levels of trauma.
Even the strongest of minds can, from time-to-time, start to struggle to cope with some of the horrendous sights which emergency services / NHS personnel are exposed to….
‘Please keep this Anonymous but feel free to email me any Questions.
Having worked for over 25 years in the NHS I finally succumb to the demons I thought were locked away. Battled with pride, isolation, suicidal thoughts, insomnia, emotional breakdowns .
Coming home from shift reliving my work, lying in bed staring at the ceiling unable to switch off. Did not speak to my partner or friends as not to be a burden. Overall I became a very good actor.
Unprecedented work demands hours without regular breaks, bullying and harassment in the organisation to meet demands.
Morale was low for all of us but as a green family we pulled each other along.
Forever verbally abused by patients for turning up late on jobs, never supported by line managers, manipulated response times.
No time to reflect on traumatic jobs, no counselling just a phone number to ring to update your sickness.
I had suffered with work related stress where my employer failed to pay my unsocial payments heaping financial stress when I was absent from work.
Was never on the sick often but persecuted when off. A failed phased return to work resulting in more stress.
Eventually a diagnosis of PTSD from a community mental health team.
Thinking of jobs when trying to sleep, waking from any sleep screaming crying having a panic attack.
Avoiding areas where trauma occurred. Researching suicide methods to end my life. Short tempered with family and friends. Fearing certain calls in work.
Frankly NONE. No system in place all help was sought via charities. Notified line managers of diagnosis of which one laughed at my condition.
A discussion with my partner who vowed for me never to return to the frontline.
An investigation was supposedly carried out yet the outcome was never made known to me as I had resigned.
An Alternative career using my clinical skills in a GP Surgery.
Even Now I still suffer, I have undergone counselling, mindful group, EMDR. I take SSRI’s but still have flashbacks and nights of no sleep.
I am scarred by what I have experienced and even more scarred on how I was treated.
Use Charities for Counselling it’s quicker, speak to helplines such as the Samaritans, expose publicly those who stigmatise you or treat you with no respect.
Bullying and intimidation can push you to suicide and those perpetrators will never be punished, but when you are dead it’s the family who suffer the pain not the one’s who push you to suicide.
Don’t Die of Mental Trauma.
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